is going on in my life?
question go ‘What is going on in my life?’ is a gift to a counsellor
because it indicates that processes are doing their work and bringing a
person very close to the point of accepting that there may be a need to
questions basic assumptions about life. It indicates a certain level of
awareness, implying as it does acceptance of the idea that there could be
another reality, which is trying to communicate something through the
confusion. In such circumstances a person is usually very receptive.
is going on?’ becomes the question when, despite our best efforts to
secure what we want and think should be the outcome, the desired result
eludes us. It is frequently the first question put to me by clients;
indeed, it is often the question, which brings them to the point of
consulting an astrologer. A number have asked the question, seeming to
convey by their manner that they know the game is up for the personality
which has wanted to think that it could, rather than actually expected, to
have it all.
is a saying much circulated in the Findhorn Community in Scotland[[i]]:
‘If you want to give God a laugh tell Him your plans.’
plans of the personality which has its centre of gravity in itself will be
successful in accordance to the out-workings of the law of cause and
effect. Put as St. Paul put it in his Epistle to the Galatians,
‘whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap’, and the position
seems very simple. Most of us can take that on board, and increasing
numbers of Westerners are acknowledging the Law of Karma, i.e., the out
workings of cause and effect across lifetimes.
is simple; it is our position, which is complex. The human being responds,
potentially, to many different centres of consciousness and karmic
redress. Regardless of whether the idea of the human family has any
emotional call upon us or not, we belong to this grouping called humanity
which is an entity, itself experiencing the outworking of the law of cause
and effect; within the human family there are racial and cultural and
familial groupings; humanity belongs to an entity called planet Earth
which has its own karma. From any of these centres of consciousness can
arise situations which are the product of karmic redress and which can
sabotage the plans of the personality.[[ii]]
addition to these impersonal causes, we have to contend with our own inner
conflicts. We are rarely completely single-minded about anything: at any
one time, with reference to any one matter or situation, we are usually
juggling with a number of different agendas, arising in different parts of
conflict between the head and the heart is commonly experienced and widely
been incorporated it into much
post-war psychological theory and supplied its own terminology.
‘plurality of I’s’, the conflict between the head and the heart,
call it what you will, frequently means that, consciously or
unconsciously, we sabotage ourselves: the plans held dear by one part of
ourselves maybe too costly to another. Caught in the conflict between the
two, our intention weakens.
sabotaging factor is the perceptions that we have of life and our selves
and of what we can and cannot, should and should not do. These assumptions
form the bedrock of our personal realities. All too frequently these
assumptions go unnoticed and unchallenged for the reasons that it is
difficult indeed to see what one is standing on because the feet cover it;
it is threatening to one’s very identity to abandon these all too
confusion and perceived limitation become externalised, i.e., we meet them
in the physical world. This is central to the rationale of incarnation on
the physical plane: what we experience outwardly reveals what we are
inwardly. Revelation can lead to understanding, which, by slow stages, can
lead to liberation, but before this happens there is likely to be
disappointment and disorientation. The human mind is an electromagnetic
field. The personal reality makes a person more or less susceptible to
impersonal causes. Negative attitudes, for example, will attract into the
personal energy field negative situations from the impersonal world.
more developed and stronger a personality becomes (this usually means that
the heart and throat centres opening) then the more resistance he has to
the outworking of the Law of Accident (i.e., impersonal causes) and the
more influenced is he by the outworking of the Law of Fate (i.e., causes
arising within himself). Under the Law of Fate a person meets his inner
self externalised in the outer world: the ‘terrible stare of self
person who is free from the Law of Fate comes under the Law of Destiny, or
the behest of the soul.
personality is struggling free from the Law of Fate, the Law of Destiny
begins to kick in and then the plans of the personality really come under
pressure. When the Law of Destiny is kicking in, as it is in the lives of
many people now, the conflict between the head and the heart, goes up a
gear and becomes the conflict between the higher and lower self. The soul
begins to supervise the use of life and time, and if the personality still
has a centre of gravity in itself then, as a result of intervention from
the soul level, its plans can go haywire. This, presumably, is when God
really gets His laughs.
confrontations between the personality and the soul, or the personal and
transpersonal, occur in the lives all of us.
the horoscope, the periods of confrontation are discernible and it is
notable that people who have formally committed themselves to a spiritual
path and may have assumed roles of some authority are likely to experience
these standoffs as a profoundly challenging time. This is how the
‘ism’ gets removed from ego and the ‘ish’ from self. It is through
such periods in which the personality perspective is so strenuously
challenged, that the soul brings the personality to heel
level of development and understanding which we have attained will
determine not whether we go through the experience but, rather, the
intensity of the experience and our capacity to make sense of what is
happening, i.e., whether we view what is happening in our life as the
workings of malign fate, or are prepared to accept that we are
experiencing Grace in the form of guidance from a higher level.
language of esotericism, this process in its concluding stages is called
Alignment. At this point, to use the terminology of Theosophy, the Angel
of the Presence and the Dweller on the Threshold meet. The ajna or brow
centre is then open and the integrated personality, an agent for soul
purpose, is fully under the Law of Destiny. As the agent of soul purpose,
he will be required to use his individuality and his personal capacities.
are many, many people in the West approaching this stage now. And it is a
confusing time until the personality comes to understand what is going on.
This confusion is being made worse by the kind of standardisation process
encouraged by so much recent thinking, which emphasises that it is
‘spiritual’ to be such-and-such a way, to live such-and-such a way and
to be engaging in certain activities. This interferes to a very real
degree with the capacity to listen to what the soul is trying to tell the
personality. It cuts across authenticity, creates confusion about identity
and anticipates the instructions of the soul, using inadequate and gross
generalisations, based more often than not, on how spiritual awareness has
expressed itself in different cultures in different times. Different
levels of development require different kinds of input.
anyone wanting to understand what is going on and what best to do, DK gave
the following advice: Establish the
exact moment of birth and consult a completely wise astrologer, if such a
person can be found, or consciously assume the position of the spiritual
Observer, and cultivate the power to respond to the soul. Then, from the
angle of that soul, the personality must learn to control circumstances
and the attendant reactions of the personality.
either case we need to look at ourselves, not at some abstraction called the spiritual aspirant,
and at ourselves as we really are, not as we would like to be or think we
should be. Spiritual vanity, assumption and in authenticity are amongst
the biggest obstacles to spiritual development. If wise astrologers do
become more numerous then they can help us look at ourselves by supplying
useful frames of reference because the question ‘What is going on?’
could be put another away: ‘What do I need to understand about
Established in Scotland in the1970s by Eileen Caddy, in support of a
more conscious way of living.
This state of affairs in governed by what in Gurdieff called the Law
of Accident. The more developed a person becomes the freer he becomes
from accident i.e., impersonal causes.
Author unknown; from a poem called ‘The Mountaineers’.