The DK
Foundation
Getting Real 9
What
I am supposed to be doing?
This
question, so frequently asked, presupposes that there is an identifiable
plan to our lives and a plan that astrology can discern. It is a valid
question and an answerable one because our personalities are a scheme, a
scheme for the development of consciousness, and the horoscope charts that
scheme. What we are all required to do is live consciously in accordance
with that scheme. This will recommend a function (e.g., questing,
teaching, serving or initiating), but never a specific task.
In
the past twenty or so years, there appears to have been a loss of interest
in the question Who am I? But
the question of what to do is answerable only in terms who we are.
Who
am I? was
a question of the1960s and 70s, a time when there was such an investment
in the concept of individuality. Perhaps we think it a rather a naive
question now and we consider that we know who we are. For sure, a greater
psychological awareness has increased self-awareness. But what the last
twenty-five years have encouraged is an enhanced capacity to analyze our
psyches, i.e. to discover what
has made us who we are. This may be the goal of psychology but this
is not all there is to us or to self-understanding.
To
be fully ourselves we have to know also who we are in formation. We have
to know what is our potential. This is the goal of spirituality. Our
potential is something that we share with the rest of the human family but
it also that which has been allocated to each of us with each new
incarnation.
Each
lifetime in the physical body is a package of opportunities. From past
life is restored to us that which will restore familiar conditions to
enable us to develop a different relationship with them; also from past
life is restored a familiar way of understanding self and life, but we are
also supplied with new qualities and capacities, the role of which is to
provide a challenge to the familiar.
From
the confrontation between past and present, which so often manifests
through a conflict between head and heart, we stand to shift enough, on
both the emotional and mental levels to admit the future in the shape that
it is being offered us, (i.e., in the shape conferred by our identity, in
any one lifetime).
The
scheme of the personality is set up this way. Conflict is the grit in the
oyster shell. This process takes us along the path of evolution and its aim
is to gradually equip the personality to be an agent of the soul in the
world of human affairs. This process serves a larger purpose than our own
personal development.
We
have a responsibility to develop into that which we are designed to be
because each of us belongs to a soul group with its own identity and
purpose: if the constituent members will be and do what they are designed
to do then the soul group can better do what it is designed to be and do.
This way, the balance is maintained. There are some 6 billion human souls
engaged in the outworking of the plan for our solar system. This is some
chain gang of which we are a part and its efficiency is diminished when
there is no sense of a common objective.
For
one to rise all must rise that is the reality and message of the soul to
the personality. We can overlook it and focus exclusively upon ourselves,
if we choose, but we will never change the subjective reality because
‘me’ and ‘you’ have no meaning at the level of the soul.
To
understand both what we have been and to become what we are designed to be
is true self-understanding. Psychology and spirituality are opposite ends
of the spectrum of development, and like all polarities, if they will but
unite they will give wholeness to each other.
In
order to answer the question ‘What
should I be doing’ with any precision there has to be awareness of
what is the true identity because this reveals what we are designed to be
i.e., how and by what means we are to transform energy in this lifetime.
This is the story behind the natal chart, if we know how to read it. The
key to identity is contained in the Sun Sign.
To
find out what we are designed to be and to go forward into that identity
has more transformative value, potentially, than trying to cram ourselves
into a pre-formed mould of a spiritual lifestyle. Yet it also
requires a great deal of courage to look closely at the detail of one’s
life in case it does not match up to the conditioned expectations we have
of ourselves or of the spiritual life.
Some
seventy years ago now, the Indian teacher Yogananda pointed out to his
largely American and mysticism- infatuated audience that there were many
holy men in India who would need to reincarnate as humble householders in
order to learn lessons of responsibility in the circumstances of the
everyday.
All
of us with spiritual expectations and ambitions need to think through the
implications of that statement because there are, for sure, a great many
spiritually-minded Westerners trying to avoid becoming humble householders
at all costs because this role does not conform to their idea of what is a
spiritually correct way to be.
Conditioning
is never more erosive than in the matter of identity. What we are in
essence
(i.e.,
according to the content of our personalities) transcends social models
but because our essence has to be expressed in time and in a way that is
relevant to the time in which we live, social models become very
influential and may be a source of limitation and inauthenticity. At any
one time there are always occupations and activities that are flavour of
the month and command undue attention and influence.
What
is a spiritual way to be and what is not? There is only one possible
criterion: does it raise vibration and will it contribute towards the
opening of an energy centre? If it can do that then, directly or
indirectly, depending upon the activity, it can help the individual,
humanity and the planet. This can be done without so much as a whiff of
joss, exotic apparel, ceremonies, teachers, teachings, and without a
dramatically significantly altered reality. True spiritual transformation
involves consciousness and a realization about self in relation to life
that in some way reduces fear and the sense of limitation and opens up
possibility. Prisons and hospitals accommodate quite as much spiritual
transformation as centers dedicated to spirituality, and probably a good
deal more.
For
sure, each culture and age has produced specific responses, rituals and
techniques to the task of purposefully raising vibration, and we have
assumed that this is spirituality when, in fact, they are all
examples of how, historically, the matter of purposefully raising energy
has been handled. They are means to an end not an end in themselves.
The
transformative value in living within the design of the personality, as
one truly is, dealing intelligently with the situations which arise in
everyday life, is inestimably greater than that of cultivating a
consciously spiritual image and getting caught up in the appearance.
The
life of a spiritually aware person does not have to assume a particular
shape or appearance. We can be spiritually aware without any of the
trappings which will mark one out as ‘spiritual’ by contemporary
criteria; and we can sit in a development circle, meditate from dawn to
dusk and lower vibration through
feeling complacent, superior and judgmental of others.
Is
this what we want to hear when we put this question What
am I supposed to be doing? Of course it is not! We want to hear that
there is a specific, spiritually significant task awaiting us. And it goes
without saying that it will be well paid and secure.
This is a glamour! It is almost never this way. Rather it is up to
us to each of us to decide how to make a contribution having first learned
what we are designed for and having learned how to make ourselves
reliable, responsible, consistent and effective. If we have not yet taken
them, these preparatory steps are precisely what we are supposed to be
doing.
In
the final analysis it is neither our appearance nor even our activities
that determines our level of being, but how we use and produce energy
through our three bodies: the physical, the emotional and the mental.
This tendency to confuse inner and outer, to look down the
wrong end of the telescope is probably as old as organized spiritual
activity, but it is a very real problem wherever New Age ideas have taken
root, because so many have been circulated without any awareness of first
principles. The first principle of spirituality is transformation, of the
lower in oneself into a higher substance. Spirituality is
transformation, not simply feeling better, nor borrowing the clothes,
practices, and example of people who have walked a transformative path
without also taking on their values, sacrifices, struggles and
commitments.
What
we are all supposed to be doing now, is consciously tackling the
possibilities of development open to Westerners as the twenty-first
century begins and humanity faces the challenge of the years up to 2012.
We will find these possibilities in the conflict within our own beings and
externalized in our own everyday lives. That is where we must deal with
them, with as much consciousness as possible, and awareness of the
implication of our decisions not only for ourselves but for our planet. In
dealing with them, in steering our own craft and keeping it upright, we
will find the point of ourselves.
There
is no value in trying to turn back the clock to a simpler time. This is
sentimentality and it cannot help us because we are no longer simple
people. We have a need to acknowledge the complexity in ourselves and in
our world and to find ways of making it work for us. And what modern
living is ably providing for us is a great deal of grit for our oyster
shells.